Dear Kingston,
We are about to turn your little world upside down. Everything that you've ever known will be no more. And I am sorry. I am so sorry. Although I believe that you will find love with us and that you will be happy - I am sorry. I am sorry for the infinite sadness that you will feel. I am sorry that you will not always understand your sadness. I am sorry that I will not always understand that sadness. But please know that I have a related sadness all of my own because you were not born to me and you should have been. You deserve that and we deserve that. But Kingston, we have our own story and we have our own lives. And just because our lives do not emulate the lives of others doesn't make it wrong, it just makes us different. And that difference in and of itself is something incredibly special and shared only between us.
We will come to China and get you. Your dad, brother and your mom. We will be tired and we will be scared. You will be tired and you will be scared. But we will love you. Kingston, I would like more than anything to be able to tell you that I love you with all of my heart already but I cannot. I have made that mistake before. I have lived and I have learned. For self perseverence I know that I must lead with my head and not my heart. But Kingston, in time I will love you. I have lived and I have learned and I know that a learned love is something to behold. A learned love does not come easily. It is sometimes with great hardship that one learns to love. It is sometimes with great sadness that one learns to love. But in the end there is love. And it is a strong love. This love is what defines us as a family. If things were easy then they wouldn't be so hard and they wouldn't be worth fighting for. And dear Kingston you are worth it and we are worth it. Welcome to the Lentz family Kingston Tao.
